Something That Should Have Been Posted =)

ASSALAMUALAIKUM... HYE PEEPS!

OK, first and foremost, I just have to say this :

"Dear Blog,

I LOVE You so much. I am so, SO sorry that I sort of abandoned you for quite sometime now. Blame the coverage coz every time I have something to share and pour out to you, it seems so hard to get the coverage to run smoothly. Always got stuck and blank in the middle of the post...yep, BLAME the coverage. Apparently there's a lot going on during my absence here though. Lots of thins to share but I don't know where to start. So Allah, help me out here pls.

Thanks!

LOVE,

Ur BFF"

So yeah, I've been neglecting my so-called 'responsibility' to update this blog of mine for quite a long time. To tel you the truth, I am rather missing it ahaha. OK laugh all you like. Bare in mind that this post might come with different languages. I mean, I'm updating this one with my own mother-tongue as well as the modern lingua franca. So, where should I begin?... 

owh yeah....let's start with this...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

So sorry that this wish comes so late. It's almost the end of Syawal already. But hopefully I can still wish you these. I knew Sarawakian usually beraya for the whole Syawal! But still opportunity doesn't come twice eyh? I don't know if it is applicable for this one though. HAHA!

So anyway, I would want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI & HAPPY EID MUBARAK to everyone readers or not. It doesn't matter. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

Kalau ada salah dan silap, saya dan keluarga minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki. Semoga ukhuah yang terbina antara kita semua kekal abadi. AMIN...

GOODLUCK PEOPLE!

OK, it's already the examination season. (Ya ALLAH, tak puas lagi beraya weyh!)

I'm still stuck studying all that I have to study for the final. Hopefully I can improve my marks. It seems so hard to get into the Dean's List again. Owh My ALLAH. Sad huh. My bad. I didn't really do much. Most of the time too tired to study.

But anyway, as for now, one paper over, 5 left. Still a long way to go.

Monday, Sept 19 - BEL311 (OVER!!)

Saturday, Sept 24 - CTU231

Sunday, Sept 25 - FAR200

Monday, Sept 26 - MGT162

Thursday, Sept 29 - MAF220

Tuesday, Oct 4 - LAW240

Luckily my LAW240 paper is the week after next. Still got time to shove everything back into my head I guess. I'm just worried about this weekend, all three papers are just simply too much. FAR200 is by far, FAR FAR AWAY from my full understanding. MY GOD! I'm just simply that bad???

Hoping to at least get some A's. A couple or two maybe. I am TOO desperate for that Dean's List. PLEASE!!!! *wink2*

I THINK, I MIGHT HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE AGAIN

OK I know in the past I have posted something similar to this. AHHA.. But this time, I have to tell you I kindda really like this boy. But I can't say anything. My lips are sealed....

OWH OK! I just need to pour it out somehow. Hahaha...

Just fragments...not the details...ehehe


As usual, this particular person is of course taller than I am. Tall people are somewhat irresistible to me. He's cute and always got his way around of making me laugh that sometimes I'll laugh even by just merely thinking of him. He always has stories to share with me. Well, whenever we're talking that is. But I don't know why somehow whenever we sort of passed each other in campus he never seems to bother to say 'HI'. Does he hates me? (OK. Sure point me out. That sentence just have to have grammatical mistake right?) There is always stuff to argue even when most of the times I am the one that started it. But truth to be told, havig him around me it makes me feel so happy and I can now somehow smile that smile that I once had almost 5 years ago. Because every time he was around, my heart jump the somersault flip that it used to do. In class or whenever I think he will be there he'll be the one I'll be looking for. Just to look nothing more, nothing less, and DON'T you go thinking that I'll be imagining all those horrid things about him because I don't. 

OK back to the not-so-detailed about him things... I LOVE his clean looks. Smart outfit. He's nerdy sometimes. But he have that sense of style. Korean, Chinese, Japanese or whatever that is, it works for him - WELL. It is safe for me to say for now that he's a gentleman. But a bit behind on being romantic. Romantic are always something to be learn by ALL men. SERIOUSLY people!


OK. I think that's enough about him though. Nothing else to share I guess. Will share if I've got some updates on HIM.ehehehe... (MY GOD! bunyik gedik sungguh ko nih!)




CURRENTLY ON MY PLAYLIST


ok aku cam syok tetiba ngan lagu2 nih...just heard it and terus suka...like...sangat2 suka.ehehe...
I'll post some of them...still looking for the lyrics and videos...


KRU - TIGA KATA
SHEILA, JACLYN VICTOR, NING BAIZURA - BERIBU SESALAN
ALYAH - KISAH HATI
NAJWA LATIF - CINTA MUKA BUKU
MAHER ZAIN - FREEDOM (particularly like this one. cerita sal semangat umat Islam membebaskan tanah Palestin)


will post the videos and lyrics later...my boradband coverage is again failing me.


I think that's all for the time being. Will be back with more stuff to talk about. Tata peeps.


Wassalamualaikum =)


p/s: tadi ingatkan nak g ke KFC makan...macam teringin lak nak g KFC. So, ajak kawan2. tapi kawan2 lak tak nak g...ADUSS takde teman den. Cam malas je nak bergantung ngan orang nih kan...macam2 kerenah. Biarlah...kawan mmg kawan, tapi tak semuanya leh tolong kita bila kita perlu diorang. Kadang2 macam alasan depa bagi kat hangpa. Tak gitu??? So in the end, aku dok g jalan kaki sorang2 jugak ke D.I. g KFC. tapi instead of going to KFC for an early dinner, tengok mayoh urang nyak!! Terus g kedai sebelah...abang KFC bernama Pizza Hut...maka, duduklah aku sorang2 kat sebuah meja kat satu sudut Pizza Hut...huhuhu...kalau ade teman maksud aku orang yang aku suka (since aku xmok bergerek, kawan tapi saling suka sama suka ya jak la kali), mesti aku sik sorang2. Leh ku makan sambil kenal2 ngannya nak?? ADOI! [panjang gakk p/s aku nih...KAN...]

REPLY LA WEI!

my blog dah tak betul da....bak kata org sarawak, ngambor jak isik blog ku tok!!

huhuhu...sebenarnya tgh dalam annoyance nih. ekceli, geram plak bila org yg ditunggu2 tak reply mesej. tambah2 kalau kita suka orang tu or ape2. it's like "URGH!" major! knapa la diorang nih tak reply2. buat aku tetiba terpikey yang diorang nih seolah2 melarikan diri dari aku je. ada apa2 yang aku tak tau tapi korang tau ke? ke dah tau aku ska kat korang? kalau tau pown, buat2 besa je lah...bukannya aku obses pown ngan korang...adui!!!

huhuhu...kuciwa nih tau!

HEADING BACK TO CAMPUS...again.

Assalamualaikum & hey3! guess what, IT'S MONDAY!! tippie!!! (so not!)

ahahha...

ok. so as usual, today i'll have to head back to campus. will be leaving around 8 something i assume. my first class of the week ain't no that early. it's at 10 am. so i guess i'll have about two hours to get back there and send my stuff to my room and head to class. or so...like i usually leave the house at 9!! aha.

anyway, will be having a test to day...guess3 what code it was....LAW162 (is that even the correct code???) ok...will be tested on written and unwritten law...the sources of law. let's just hope and pray that the questions are of the ones that i've been studying and understand last Thurs. hopefully my carried marks will be ok...i just desperately in need of those marks! owh come on!!!

ok then, will be updating you again perhaps after the test (?). tatas!

WASSALAM...

ALLAH, SABARKANLAH HATIKU MENGHADAPI DUGAAN INI...

"Semoga kamu mendapat cukup kebahagiaan untuk membuat kamu bahagia,

Cukup cubaan untuk membuat kamu kuat,

Cukup penderitaan untuk membuat kamu menjadi manusia yang sesungguhnya,

Dan cukup harapan untuk membuat kamu positif terhadap kehidupan."

aku senyum, tapi hati ni tak setenang senyuman. aku nak nangis, tapi terlalu ego nak nangis.

sakit hati? tak...cuma terluka dan terhiris. aku tak suka buat musuh. kalau aku tak setuju, aku akan berterus-terang, tapi bukan untuk semua orang ketahui. cukupla antara aku dan dia. kenapa selalu jadi macam ni?

kenapa bila kita dah anggap orang tu rapat, percaya itu ini, rupa2nya semua tu tipu?

kenapa bila kita diam, orang cakap kita salah?

kenapa bila kita nak betulkan keadaan, orang perlekehkan?

kenapa aku mesti berjumpa dengan golongan yang khianati aku?

kenapa aku mesti hadapi semua ni sampai adakalanya mengaibkan diri aku sendiri, walhal orang lain yang lakukannya?

YA ALLAH, banyak nya aku mengeluh. Teruk betul hambaMu seorang ni Ya ALLAH. berat hati ni, hanya engkau yang tahu. Aku tak tahu kalau aku dianiayai atau silap aku sendiri yang jadikan keadaan ni semakin teruk. HURM...itula...patutnya aku ikut apa kata hati ni. Lebih baik banyak diam. Bila diam, kita tak menambahkan dosa, tak jadikan keadaan susah untuk diri kita ni.

Ujian ALLAH ada kat mana-mana. Belum terlambat untuk aku ingtkan diri nih tentang semua tu. SABAR...aku harap sabar dan berserah diri kepada ALLAH itu lebih baik ganjarannya. Jadi penawar hidup aku.

Edah, belajarlah untuk tidak menjadi terlalu naif dan terlalu percayakan seseorang. Bila masa susah, mereka tidak akan ada bersama kita. Jangan benci jika mereka lukai perasaan ni. Sebab benci itu bukan milik mahupun hak kita. Jangan bazirkan tenaga untuk semua yang tidak penting.

i'm not a failure. i've been through a lot lately, and those bits and pieces should make me strong. stronger than anything else than ever before. i should know, i've been to this place before, and unfortunately, under certain circumstances, am back here again. pray for a better tomorrows though. i don't want to be here again and again. i'm only human, nothing supernatural or much of a different than any other flesh and blood. i am me, and i am too, with all that ALLAH al-Mighty have created, fragile. i should've known better, life isn't a drama, nor a fairy tale.

i cried when i need to, when i want to...but this very second, my tears are of humiliation from their act, whomever they'd be. i taught myself to be strong my whole life, please stay that way.

i do not have much close friends to be able to share with. nor did i have other places to try to make me feel better. i need someone or anyone to share my feelings with right now. anonymous you may be, who knew me or not, or if somehow i knew you, i hope this is not too much to ask for. Just to read, and never judge me, or anyone else. I just need to make peace with my own feelings through this. Sorry.

"Wahai Tuhan kami! Limpahkanlah sabar kepada kami, dan teguhkanlah tapak pendirian kami serta menangkanlah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir"

(Al-Baqarah : 250)

"Wahai Tuhan kami, limpahkanlah kesabaran kepada kami, dan matikanlah kami dalam keadaan Islam (berserah bulat-bulat kepadaMu)"

(Al-A'raf : 126)

doakan kesabaranku...

wassalam

09:01 PM

ASSALAMUALAIKUM dan hey3!~

Alhamdulillah. seems like my mood if recovering from the shock and disappointment. Ya ALLAH, galau sangat rasa hati sampai terlupa pula nak bagitau kat orang2 kampung ni...ehehee..malu pulak I. macam mana boleh lupa kan???

okok.

DENGAN INI SAYA MENGUMUMKAN...tehehehe...skema je bunyik!

SAYA DAN KELUARGA MENGUCAPKAN

saya memohon keampunan andainya ada salah dan silap, kasar tutur kata dan teguran yang mungkin bagi saya biasa tetapi bagi anda melukakan, perilaku yang melampau atau tidak dikenan oleh hati.

Ramadhan ni bulan yang baik untuk mendidik hati lebih merendah dengan ujian dan dugaan ALLAH. mendidik diri untuk menjadi lebih baik dan yang paling penting untuk meng-UPGRADE IMAN yang kadang2 bertambah pun terhakis jugak....naik turun naik turun je pasang surut IMAN tu...harap2 berkat RAMADHAN, keimanan kita berkekalan...AMIN.

ALHAMDULILLAH, kita dipertemuka lagi dengan Ramadhan kali ni. ALLAH masih bagi peluang untuk kita tambah ibadah dan dekatkan diri kita kepadaNya. Takut bila Ramadhan lepas terfikir macam mana takkan jumpa Ramadhan yang akan datang?? Jadi kepada bloggers semua, hargailah peluang ini. Kalau ada orang cakap, "ala...Ramadhan ngan Syawal, tahun depan pun ada....toksah la sibuk sangat ngan benda tu." Ha.....boleh bagi tau kat diorang, diorang boleh jamin ke akan betemu Ramadhan pada masa akan datang??? ha.....tengok dia jawab apa.....ehehe...sesungguhnya masa itu singkat...umur kita pulak makin pendek...jadi amikla peluang nih baik2 ye...ehehe...insya-ALLAH, ganjaran berlipat kali ganda dijanjikan kepada kita oleh ALLAH.

AMIN

HATI TAK PANDAI MENIPU...jadi?

ustaz kata, kalau tak pasti, pergi tanya kat hati kita...sebab hati tak pandai menipu.bila aku tanya hati aku sekarang ni, hurm....patut aku ikut ke? cam mana pulak peribahasa ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa?

mode: aishiteru...stuck in my mind

i need to let go rite?

salam...

hidup cukup indah kalau kita tau menghargainya dan tidak berlebihan.

(rasanya aku ni kekadang mmg jiwang jugak eyh.ahahaha. tapi iyela...nak buat macam mana la kan?)

kita ni, kalau ALLAH berikan kita hidup untuk satu hari lagi, satu hari yang kita tinggalkan dibelakang sedang kita berjalan ke depan akan menjadi sejarah. tak gitu? sepatutnya aku tau tu and aku praktikkan. belajar daripada kesilapan tak kira apapun yang kita akan pelajari, dan teruskan hidup. aku pernah suka seseorang, dia pun suka aku jugak rasanya. tapi...mungkin bukan jodoh kami. so kami takde la kemana-mana pun. so aku teruskan hidup and tak nak toleh2 lagi. jangan pandang ke belakang la katakan. ye tak?

tapi kadang2 bila aku nak langkah ke depan, terpaksa jugak aku menoleh untuk pastikan aku tak buat benda yang sama. the thing is, aku tak tau kenapa aku mesti teringat dengan budak nie. what's past is past. nothing can help it. and i doubt that i want it anymore. not with the same person and not for the same result.tapi aku selalu je nak cari dia utk tau dia buat ape...alowe????? what is wrong with me??????? ok...i NEED to look for other possible candidates for my mr. right!! like seriously!!!

TATA MAY, HEY THERE JUNE

Salam..hye ya'al.

It's June already. I'n a few days away to return to my 'camp' as my dad says. It doesn't feel like i had had a holiday. (Izzie2...you lazy bum) Still not ready to get back there yet. Somehow my brain feel too relazed and too lazy. OWH NO!!! Might be degenerated caused by too much relaxation. Haiz!!

I thought of shedding some weight for the holidays...ahaha...you can definitely laugh at that! So as expected, it didn't work. A few hours ago, I put on my kebayas and baju kurungs just to try it on and see if I can still fit in it...i might wear it for the wedding tomorrow (today!! and ur still not sleeping!) but surprise2....I CAN'T FIT IN MOST OF THEM!!! OMG!!! so clearly i have to do something about this.

So here's the plan, once i get back to campus, I need to start fasting. Apart from to train myself for the coming Ramadhan, i might as well lose some weight and shed those extra bulkiness and flatten my belly. Hopefully before Hari Raya there'll be differences...PLS...PLS...PLS... Might be because of the stress and all. I seemed to turn to food to comfort me and to occupy my time. HEH! as if that'll help me in any sort of way.

So it's my cousin's cousin's wedding tomorrow. It's actually the reception. And i'm left in a dilemma what to wear to the wedding. HAIZ!!! Hopefully my green baju kurung still stood by me for that.

Ah...did i mention? What...no? ok...i'm mentioning it now then. I'm going to campus tomorrow, just to put things to it's place since I'm most probably won't be in campus for the first day of lecture. Will be in Shah Alam for SiFE Bootcamp. Will be flying on Friday morning. (EARLY morning) and i don'y really know what time will be reaching back here. So have to prepare my stuff as early as i could so that i can get back from KL and straight to my dorm (another NO!!!!). OMG! the last week f holiday can be as pack as this??? Haiz!! Didn't expect that though. I was thinking of going for a walk and shopping the days of hols. But na'ah...not for me.

Still have to get my room tidy up before leaving it for weeks. Erm...when will this take place?? Erm....tomorrow night? (WHAT??? Izzie...izzie...izzie...always wait for the last SECOND!)

huhu..i just have the thing for crafts and stuff...huhu...daddy...daddy...can i have a small, portable sewing machine? please...... (o_o)

ok...now i'm out...gotta get ready for tomorrow. don't wanna wake up late...AGAIN!! so cherrios...tata!

xoxo