KEEPING ME SMILING...THE WHOLE DAY

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys.

I bet if you've read my previous posts u'll understand why I named this post today as it is now.

Yes, i think i do have a crush or maybe more than that to this friend of mine. From previous experiences, the usual crush will only lasts for a short period of time, and usually I won't be so sure as this. I've only felt this way once. That 'once' I'm saying is almost stepping into the fifth year. Now, I've got the same feeling...like what i felt then. Is it possible this could ever happen again?

I hope this time, I wouldn't get hurt for feeling this. But I can't say for sure though. I really can't. I am not sure how he felt towards me. But this time, unlike the first time I did feel this, I am sure to be more prepared...prepared of rejection, and prepared to be more matured. Instead of wanting a relationship, I only want him to know how i felt. Nothing more, nothing less. Keeping this friendship is much more important. Plus, i don't think I would want to get involved unless we're engaged. Seeing the situation now, the later isn't something that would come anytime soon. Getting to know each other is better rather than to be involved in something that would turn our feelings sour to each other.

Whatever it is, I am sure that I am in love. Even if it isn't that LOVE yet. It's something that made my heart sings the whole day and praying that this is real.

Tonight i kept on playing these songs...I'd like to share it with you guys. Enjoy the songs!

YOU GOT ME

You're stuck on me 
and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though 
I try to hide, I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe, you got me, yeah
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours 
it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin each day in this life, without you.
Without you.

One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in 
you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way
I know we will
and in my heart I know that 
you'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do
Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it musIt's everything that I've been dreaming of.t be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

FALLIN' FOR YOU

I don't know but
I think I maybe 
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh 
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

p/s: rindu pulak nak jumpa...insya-ALLAH esok jumpa...nak bagitau ke tak???

Bila Hati Gembira...

assalamualaikum...hye korang..

sekali lagi...nak update. ingtkan nak update Jumaat lepas tapi balik jalan2 kepenatan pulak tambah ngan line yang memang 'bagus' kat asrama...balik2 hari nih, sakit belakang pulak...tapi jalan jugak sebab ada benda nak dibeli. anyways, sebelum aku lari dari punca idea sebenar aku nih, baik aku teruskan.

JUMAAT

Pagi tu kelas AIS...aku g ngan tidak bermaya sebab sakit perut n rasa nak muntah. Sepanjang minggu aku makan satu meal sehari tanpa banyak makanan ringan atau tambahan. So, aku paham jugakla. Alhamdulillah, turun 1 kg. okok...sambung2. so sakit perut sangat. tapi, nak jalan2 tengahari tuh.so gagahkan diri untuk kelas seterusnya. semester nih, aku suka hari jumaat. sebab kelas best. lepas kelas aku mintak tolong kawan aku ato papan notis sekejap. dah tuh, aku baru perasan aku dah lambat nak balik utk solat zuhur n nak kemas untuk keluar petang tu.

adoi!!

actually, the plan for that evening was supposed to be for Wednesday. tapi tukar sebab aku duty untuk kadet bomba. so, aku kenakan baju merah petang tu sebab that is the only blouse that i have then...lupa nak bawak baju jalan2 bila balik isnin tu. aku excited nak kuar petang tu...sebab aku kuar ngan kawan aku n 'abg korea'.

jadi, by 2 kami dah mula gerak dari uitm ke the spring kuching. aku drive...ngahaha...can u believe it???

so, sampai2 spring pulak dah lambat nak tengok wayang Puss in Boots pukul 2.15 ptg. so kami beli tiket utk show pukul 4.15 ptg. then, kami pergi makan kat Manhattan Fish Market. sedap...walaupun harga dia boleh tahan mahal, tapi sekali sekala, takpa la kot.

lepas makan, baru kami tgk cerita Puss in Boots. best...lawak...ngahahaha...rasa cam bebudak lagi la pulak.ahahaha. lebih seronok sebab ada kawan2 temankan.

lepas tgk wayang, aku, biha n 'abg korea' g jenjalan...aku g aussino sebab nak belikan hadiah untuk mama n bapak utk anniversary diorang minggu depan. i got them a set of towels...nampak cute and sweet. then jalan2 pulak ke mph, nak cari ombak rindu. hati berbunga2 sebab 'abg korea' jalan nga kita.ekeke...(perasan nya aku nih)

pastu masuk padini pulak...baju perempuan tak banyak yang menarik perhatian...yang lelaki punya pulak cantek2. tapi memandangkan aku nih perempuan dan aku takda sesapa nak bagi baju camtuh, aku tgk and jalan aje...harharhar...

sebenarnya dala masa berjalan tu, otak ligat berfikir, agaknya patut tak aku bagitau kat seseorang rasa hati nih..?tapi akhirnya, aku cam tak dapat nak bagitau...sedih...tapi tak apa...aku diamkan aje la...seperti selalu...

sebenarnya aku ada termimpi something yang tak  baik minggu nih, tapi aku tak nak percaya sangat sebab aku tahu, ALLAH lebih tau daripada aku. baik atau buruk sesuatu kejadian hanya ALLAH yang tahu. aku takut kalau jadi apa2, aku tak sempat nak bagitau orang yang aku sayangi bahawa aku sayangkan diorang. aku nak diorang tahu walaupun diorang mungkin tak sayangkan aku macam aku sayangkan diorang. tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak bagitau kat diorang. fear of rejection, fear of my own ego, i can't seem to get it out. so i did a will written on a paper. just in case. tapi sebelum aku tutup post kali nih, there's something that i want people to know...and i hope they'll know.

AKU INGIN KAU TAHU...

Aku ingin kau tahu bonda dan ayahanda,

Yang aku berterima kasih atas segala yang kalian lakukan buatku sepanjang hidupku,

Yang aku menghargai senyuman, nasihat, ketawa dan kasih sayang yang telah kalian kongsikan,

Yang aku amat terhutang budi atas setiap pengorbanan dan setiap titis usahamu dalam membesarkanku,

Yang aku memohon ampun atas salah dan silapku,

Yang aku harap aku telah membanggakanmu,

Yang aku harap aku telah capai apa yang kau harap-harapkan,

Yang aku teramat sayangkan kalian, teramat cintakan kalian,

Yang aku doakan kita bertemu kembali di Jannah Allah.

Aku ingin kau tahu saudara-saudaraku,

Yang aku berterima kasih atas kasih sayang yang kalian berikan kepadaku,

Yang aku menghargai setiap nasihat yang kalian berikan,

 Yang aku amat bersyukur kita dijadikan saudara,

 Yang aku amat berbesar hati kerana kalian bersama-samaku sepanjang hidupku,

 Yang aku meminta maaf jika ada perilak dan kata-kataku menyakitkan,

Yang aku sayangkan kalian seperti darah dagingku sendiri.

Aku ingin kau tahu wahai sahabat-sahabatku,

Yang aku amat bersyukur kita dipertemukan,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih atas bantuan dan kasih sayang yang kita kongsi,

Yang aku amat menghargai kehadiran kalian dalam kehidupanku,

Yang aku amat sayangkan kalian seperti saudara-saudaraku,

Yang aku berharap cukup kenangan untuk disimpan untuk kalian ceritakan nanti.

Aku ingin kau tahu wahai insan yang telah memikat hatiku,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih kerana kau berikan senyuman dan tawa kepadaku,

Yang aku amat berterima kasih kerana kau membuatku senang,

Yang aku amat menghargai kehadiranmu,

 Yang aku sebenarnya teramat sayang kepadamu,

 Yang aku malu untuk memberitahumu, 

Yang aku sentiasa berdoa dijodohkan denganmu,

Yang aku sentiasa berdoa kau dipertemukan dengan jodohmu,

 Yang aku ingin kau tahu aku masih ingin menjadi sahabatmu,

Yang aku sebenarnya tertanya-tanya jika kau juga merasakan yang sama,

Yang aku tunggu kamu untuk melafazkannya.

AKU INGIN KAU TAHU...BAHAWA AKU TERAMAT CINTA PADA KAMU SEMUA

Wassalam...

p/s: rindu korang sudah...terima kasih awak sebab  buat saya tersenyum...saya suka kat awak. tapi nampaknya melafaskan kesukaan itu tak sesuai dilafazkan ketika gemuruh dan ketika di eskalator!!