BUDAK FLAT JALAN BAYAN (2013)

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

It has been a long time. VERY long indeed since I last update this blog. I miss blogging so much but as much as I have been missing it, I couldn't find a way or an inspiration to churn my thoughts into words. But tonight, is a bit different. I was inspired to share my thoughts after an hour and twenty-two minutes or so of a nice telemovie.

I just happen to come across this video on Youtube while searching randomly for something to entertain my 'pained soul' (due to the after effect of tiresome receipts-checking-and-invoice-flipping day). The title of the telemovie is quite erm...not so commercial as most drama. But this one I guess is a title that excellently captured the beauty of the storytelling.

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you...

A 2013 telemovie/drama directed brilliantly by Azma Aizal Yusoof (if I got the name spelled right) depicting the life of a small community, rather, group of people living in the area that most would call a 'black area'. Drug dealers dwelling around, people trying to catch up with the hectic and materialistic life, people who thought they are so pure comparing themselves with others, ex-con trying to build up a new life after his return and many more. In reality, this is somewhat a norm to a certain area but the reason why I say this is a brilliant drama is simply because the way the story telling was done. It picture the things that could happen and things that is happening around us eithout us being there to really realise it.

A simple story line being developed evenly and fully within the time frame with an ending that not just concludes the drama, but gives some space for the viewers to open up a thought of what might be next to the plot. The chosen background musics and songs helps so much in building up the 'feel' of the movie rather than pushing people to draw an emotion. The dialogues are simplistic and 'bersahaja' as if not much acting is needed. There are chemistry between the main roles, though there are some 'hurm' parts in the drama.

Kudos to the directors, and producers for this great work. Bravo to Namron for nailing the part (he always does la kan??), Shafie Naswip and of course all the casts. This is a drama that is worth 1 hour 22 minutes spent. 

Synopsis:

A story about the life of an ex-con upon his return to Jalan Bayan flat to his estranged son, Reza. Reza hated his father for leaving him to his grandfather to be brought up the past 20 years. Feeling unloved, and ashamed of his father's past, Reza vowed to chart a future worst than that of his father. Reza was involved in a drug dealing at first with his bestfriend whom felt betrayed by Reza towards the end since the drup supplier focuses on Reza more than him causing him to lose his customers. 

Living at the same area is Haji Junid, an Imam who appears pious and well respected but he, himself is someone who ridicule and belittle Agus for being an ex-con. Saying that Agus can never change to the better because he (Agus) was once a convict. He even spread slander upon Agus and Reza's friend and neighbour, Zakia saying that the couple have started an affair.

Things changes when Reza sees the changes in Agus and started to accept him as his father and forgive him for his mistakes. But due to a misunderstanding, thing gets tangled again between the father and son. However, Reza accepted his father back and starts to become a better person (supposedly not doing any drug dealing but helping his father instead with the Roti Canai stall, I guess) after his father was stabbed by his bestfriend, ex-bestfriend after an argument.

Want to know more about the story? Go and look up for the video. A must see!

Budak Flat Jalan Bayan - Promo

Link to full video of Budak Flat Jalan Bayan (2013)

Must listen tracks from the drama:

Jatuh - Liyana Fizi

Nastia - Anggur

See you bila-bila!!

 xoxo

PRAY FOR MH370

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

HYE blogwalkers,

It has been more than 24 hours since flight MH370 been missing. Had been updating myself with any news and updates concerning the matter ever since I heard the news yesterday morning. It is said that the plane was bound to arrive in Beijing at 6.30am after its departure from KLIA at 12.41am, 8 March 2014. But at 2.40am about 2 hours or so after departure the flight goes missing - mysteriously. MH370 was carrying 227 passengers with 14 nationalities; two of them are infants as well as 12 crew members.

Usually I am not the kind of person who would be listening to speculations. I refused to do so until there is proof. As for the time being, there are still reports regarding the missing flight to be proven. I really do hope things are just fine. I'd like to have my hopes high for them because I have faith in Allah. Pray and pray harder because ALLAH listens to our prayers. Whether He granted it or not, it is His decision and with every decisions Allah decided for us, it is for the best. Allah knows what we do not know.

'SAFE FLIGHT', ' I LOVE YOU', 'TAKE CARE' AND 'GOODBYES'

More often than not we tend to take for granted these well wishes whenever we parted ways. I took a mental note to always remember to say these to people around me whenever goodbye are necessary. Things like "I Love You (s)" are often forgotten or otherwise not being said because you think that there are still time.

Take this incident as an example. If you are in this situation, that flight could have been your flight. It can might as well be the flight someone close to you got into. If bad things were to happen (Naudzubillahiminzaalik. I pray to Allah nothing as such happen!), not saying those words will bring you regrets not just for that moment, but for the rest of your life. So the next time you parted ways with an acquaintance, do remember to say a proper goodbyes. At least you have some closure.

PRAY FOR MH370

HYE BLOGGERS..err...and BLOGWALKERS.
It has been a very long time since I last update the blog. It seems I couldn't get my ideas out and dance on the keyboard to share my stories lately. Alas, I have found a slot in my life to atleast write up some things that I yearn to share.

If you havae to guess, yes I am sitting here in front of the monitor and desktop set of the library. A new semester has started and I am now a Degree student. So, since it has been quite a long time since I last put up my rant here, so I will write it up under certain headings. (^_^)

SAYING GOODBYE TO DIPLOMA

UNFORTUNATELY, since I am not using my dearest laptop now, I cannot share with you the photos. But will upload it later (if you happen to read it before I am able to do so) once I am able to log on with my unifi (yes! we HAVE unifi).

It has been three years since I set my foot in Universiti Technologi MARA (UiTM), and I was rather 2 years late than my highschool friends who were here before. I can say there are hardships faced, friendship and sisterhood bonded, and a lot of experience to say I am proud of having. After that three years, of six semesters that I have gone through for my Diploma in Accountancy, I am now a proud undergraduate!

The convocation day was on 12 November 2013 (yes, I know it has been that long 3 months or so now that I just updated it here, ahaha). The Faculty of Accountancy was in the first slot of the first day and my turn was of the 63rd. After what seems to be a lifetime of waiting to get into the robe and square hat (blue robes in my case) and parading down the isle to our seats infront of my proud parents, I am finally there. I would lie if I say it did not bring tears to my eyes, because it did - to almost everybody. Though I am not crowned with the best student award, nor am I the Chancellory Award receiver, am just the average student with average CGPA, I am still one proud gal! Yes, 5 years of waiting the chance to receive the scroll and three years of sweat and tears and a whole lot of money spent, I am now a Diploma Holder. Not just any diploma holder, I am a second higher class Diploma of Accountancy holder with a CGPA of 3.1. Not much, but i guess it is enough to get me through life and enough to put me through a Bachelor programme I was hoping to get into.

So with this post I share with you some snippets of my 'Blue Parade Day.'

(will be uploaded soon enough! ahahaha)

THANK YOUs AND GOODBYEs

I guess it is better for me to put this up under a different subheading since it will be nicer and would have a touch of sentimental to it ahaha...but this subheading is dedicated to my parents, sisters, families and friends.

(is yet to come. sorry)

I AM NOW A DEGREE STUDENT

FRANKLY, I wished I was being offered the Bachelor of Entrepreneurship programme. But since I put it as my second choice after Bachelor in Accountancy. I did not. Perhaps it was my calling to do Accountancy instead. So yeah, I am now going through semester 5 of my programme. For a UiTM Diploma in Accountancy certificate holder, we are required to complete a 5 semesters programme with 3 exemption semesters (credits transfer). I have completed semester 4 last January and now just starting semester 5 for about five days. I have to tell you, the course codes are not that easy to stomach. This semester is going to be tough with one repeated paper yet to get through. Eyup, one repeatd paper and we have like one class of repeaters. So all in all we'll be sitting for 7 papers all together. But insya-ALLAH, no worries. Things will get better. Insya-ALLAH.

The timetable seems so nice to us this semester. Mostly 8am classes and only 3 afternoon classes being scheduled. I hope this will give me ample time to study and do revision. Guess I need to step it up a notch ... or two this time to make sure I finish the Bachelor programme on time for my industrial training by the 7th semester and graduation. Amiin.

Oww...did I mention? I am now 24! Ok. So what is so special about that? ahaha...just something to mention. (^_^)

Wow, time does flew so fast. another 3 semesters to go and I will be a Bachelor Degree with Honors certificate holder. Insya-ALLAH. Then, I am out into the world of offices and careers. OMG! That phase sounds SOO mature! (DRAMAQUEEN!)

Okay, that concludes my short (short??) rant for the time being. The rain has stop..so it seems, and I better get going back to the hostel. Will be going home later for the weekend (yay!!).

So, til then, CHIAO!

Wassalamu'alaikum.

Love,
Izzie xoxo

31 December 2013, 11.19pm, HOME :

not ready to let go of 2013. 

but life must go on. some things are made to leave you and to be left behind. somethings you will bring along in the future. what future brings, you will not know or understand until one day you will look back to your past and realised that you left behind footprints in colours more than the ones in the rainbow.

10 Days Count Down: My Birthday Wishlist

Just realised that it is actually only 10 days left before my upcoming birthday. I really thought that there's still about two weeks to go but truth to be told when i checked on the calendar just now, there only about 10 days left, plus minus a day or so.

Ok, just randomly thinking of listing my birthday wishlist for this year! So here goes:

1. A BRAND NEW HANDBAG. (checked!)

Thanks to my dearest sister. This pink Coach from Bandung is MINE!

2. A BOUQUET OF FRESH ROSES. (from someone i like)

This is seriously just a daydream...almost, i said ALMOST impossible to happen.

3. A NEW WATCH.

This is just an example. hehee.

4. LUNCH/DINNER BUFFET AT THE RAINTREE RESTAURANT, BORNEO CONVENTION CENTRE

5. CHARM BRACELETS.

6. GROUP PHOTOSHOOT WITH FRIENDS.

This is just an illustration.

7. IPAD/SAMSUNG GALAXY TAB 2

8. ONE HUNDRED NAMES & THE TIME OF MY LIFE by CECELIA AHERN

9. BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

10. GRADUATE ON TIME!

OK. That's it...I don't have any other ideas. (^_^)

Surah Ali Imran Ayat 133-134

SENYUMLAH..... :) 

"Apabila niat awal kita untuk membantu dengan ikhlas telah kita tanam, pastikan tiada pula was-was yang menghujani hati. Kerana iblis dan syaitan itu gemar memberatkan hati dengan ragu-ragu. Pastikan ikhlas/semata-mata kerana ALLAH demi membantu saudara2 yang memerlukan. Insya-ALLAH, ALLAH akan terima amalam kita walau apapun. Doakanlah sumbangan kita sampai kepada mereka. Namun seandainya sebaliknya yang berlaku, yakinlah dengan doa dan yakinlah dengan ALLAH bahawa ALLAH akan sampaikan juga sumbangan kita itu walau bagaimanapun caranya. Kerana ALLAH Maha mengetahui. Hilangkan ragu-ragu jika yakin pada awalnya, agar tiada fitnah memisahkan kita dengan redha ALLAH terhadap kita. AMIIN, INSYA-ALLAH. =)"

-Rafidah-Rafaie

The Void Inside

Assalamualaikum

Have you ever felt the void in your heart?

   Aku selalu terasa macam tu. Tak kira berapa usia aku. Bukan sebab sunyi sebab sebatang kara, tapi rasanya sebab tidak ada teman. Ibu dan ayahlah yang jadi teman setia sepanjang hidup ni. Kalau tidak kerana kehadiran mereka, mesti sunyi sungguh-sungguh. Kesunyian yang aku rasakan ni, bukan kesunyian bab-bab ibu bapa. Aku bersyukur sebab masih ada ibu dan ayah bersama. Yang aku selalu fikir dan rasakan adalah kesunyian tanpa adanya teman yang sama umur, sama perjuangan atau sama golongan. Betul ke aku tak ada semua tu? Entah.

      Aku cemburu. YA, aku mengaku aku cemburu bila tengok orang lain upload gambar-gambar bersama kawan-kawan. Terutamanya teman-teman rapat. Aku cemburu bila diorang cakap rindu itu ini, cemburu bila diorang ingat satu sama lain. Cemburu, cemburu, cemburu. Sebab setiap kali aku tengok semua tu, tak kiralah di laman social atau pun yang aku lihat hari-hari, aku rasa kekurangan terhadap diri ni. Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak, apa kurangnya diri ni sampai aku tak jumpa pun sahabat yang boleh dianggap sebegitu. Kalau ada pun aku ketemu, mungkin tak lama, dan tak lah rapat mana pun. Atau mungkin kadang-kadang aku sahaja yang terasa aku rapat dengan mereka tapi kenyataannya, diorang tak anggap aku macam tu.

   Pernah tonton cerita 'The Sisterhood of Travelling Pants'? Rasanya kebanyakan orang ada tonton cerita tu sebab cerita tu boleh kira lama jugak dah. Cerita tu berkenaan empat orang sahabat karib yang kenal dari usia kecil. Kira soul mate la. Sentiasa bersama dan sentiasa kongsi masalah dan cerita. Aku sebenarnya inginkan persahabatan seperti itu. Bersahabat sehingga timbul rasa persaudaraan. Terasa seperti sebuah keluarga. Keluarga kecilku yang sayangkan aku, dan yang aku sayangi. Antara sebab aku inginkan persahabatan seperti itu, mungkin sebab aku sudah terbiasa hidup sendirian yang mana aku selalunya tidak berteman untuk bermain.

   Setakat ini, yang pernah aku temui hanya sedikit sahaja yang rapat denganku. Sedikit sahaja yang mengenaliku. Aku tak ada soul mate. Soul mate yang akan sentiasa ada untuk kongsi ceritanya, dan mendengar aku berkongsi ceritaku. Teman yang akan sentiasa ada untuk menemani aku masa aku sunyi, bersembang kosong, berkongsi ketawa dan air mata. Teman yang akan menggenggam tanganku memberikan semangat saat-saat aku terluka dan hampir berputus asa. Teman yang tidak akan berundur meninggalkan aku saat-saat aku memerlukannya; teman yang menerima aku seperti adanya aku. Berlebihankah apa yang aku hajati.

    Bila saja aku bertanya persoalan ini pada status-status FB, ada sajaha yang akan berkata, "Allah kan ada." Cliche sungguh jawapan itu. Kerana untuk pengetahuan, aku bukanlah sejahil itu untuk menidakkan kewujudan Allah saat-saat aku kesunyian. Sesungguhnya Allah jugalah yang menemani aku saat sahabat-sahabat berlalu. Apa yang aku inginkan itu hanyalah fitrah seorang manusia yang inginkan teman lahiriah.

Dalam duduk-duduk begini, terlintas di fikiran...

"...Rindukah mereka kepada ku seperti mana aku merindui mereka terutamanya saat-saat berjauhan?"

*Berhenti merepek dulu.*

Wassalamualaikum.

STRESS + GEJOLAK PERASAAN (maakk ai...ayat)

AKU CEPAT STRESS.

opss...lupa. ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

Yep, itulah yang aku selalu rasa kebelakangan ni. Seriously stress...stress sampai otak dan fikiran aku numb sangat2. Minggu nih test berderet2. Balik2 lepas cuti Hari Malaysia, terus busy balik...

Sebenarnya aku lagi stress sebab kecik hati ngan kawan2. Ok ...macam ni, Ahad lepas mak aku organise kira open house la untuk aku jemput kawan2 ke rumah. Sebab masa hari raya dulu tak dapat nak buat rumah terbuka untuk kawan2 sebab diorang semua tinggal jaoh2. Balik dari cuti raya pulak aku kena ke miri and minggu lepas tu aku sibuk ngan dinner apa suma. Makanya tak sempat la nak buat rumah terbuka. Tapi biasalah, mak nganbapak aku kan jenis orang yang menghargai orang yang selalu tolong aku n kawan2 aku. So, dengan susah payahnya diorang buat preparation untuk rumah terbuka tu.

My mom buatkan soto khas untuk aku sajikan kat kawan2. Bapak aku pulak sibuk buat persiapan-persiapan lain. Aku kemas rumah. Aku sebenarnya kesian dan rasa bersalah sebab mak bapak aku susah2 buatkan majlis tu untuk raikan kawan2 aku, and sebenarnya hari sebelum tu, kami sekeluarga tak tido sebab kena buat catering untuk student sekolah yang nak ke santubong. Bayangkan pengorbanan dan penat lelah mak ayah aku. Kalau aku tak pe la kan kalau orang tak kesian pun walopun balik2 dari event kat UiTM aku trus tak tido2 temankan mak aku (bagitau jugak pulak...). So korang pikey sendiri la nak kesian ke tak. Yang menyebabkan aku kecik atie nye bukan apa, aku dah bagitau kawan2 aku seminggu sebelum event tu. siap pesan dua tiga kali lagi. Aku suruh diorang confirmkan sebab mak nak tempak satey and anggarkan berapa banyak nak masak. Jawapan yang paling aku BENCI (antaranya la) ... "Tangga dolokla." , "Sik pasti lagik?","Sik tauk mek zan..." yes...aku PALING3 BENCI tahap gaban ngan benda macam tu bila aku tanya. Aku simple, kalau TAK NAK pegi, cakap "Sorry, tak dapat pergi. Kalau tak dapat pergi pun jawab benda yang sama la...or beri kecondongan korang nak pegi ke tak. (ada yang terasa? sorry ekk...sendiri mau ingat) Kalau insya-ALLAH aku tak kisah sangat sebab dah tau kecondongannya tak pegi. So yes, mak aku tempah makanan ada lah dalam seratus lebih cucuk satey n buatkan makanan untuk dalam paling cikai pun 20 orang sebab aku consider budak2 exco yang mungkin datang.

So, yes, kan aku dah bagitau awal2. So, sesapa yang takda kereta tu kenalah pandai pikir mana nak dapatkan kereta kalau mmg nak pegi ye tak? Kereta sewa area UiTM ni especially, mesti diorang dah tau yang kalau book kereta lambat sangat mmg takda kereta sewa pown. Terutamanya hujung minggu. So, diorang tak book awal2. Ahad sampai,diorang takda kereta. Call cakap sori tak dpat datang. Ok, mungkin korang cakap tak da rezeki la kan? Tapi bukankah aku dah inform awal2? So planning mesti dah ada kalau mmg nak g kan? Logik tak? So yes, mama aku mungkin kecik ati. YES GUYS, rasanya mom and dad aku mmg kecik hati. Mana taknya preparation untuk korang semua dah ready. Mama aku siap sibuk beli itu ini bangun awal2 masak untuk korang. Aku sedih gak...nasib la aku ada ajak kazen aku sekeluarga datang.

So ok, Isnin mari aku dah kureng kecik hati la....So Isnin tu aku bawak hatiku yang lara (cheywah) balik UiTM. Aku lambat...kena sound lak oleh bapak. Salah aku...tak kisah. Tapi, bila sampai UiTM, apa yang menambah kecik hatiku yang sebenarnya dah besar kembali ke bentuk normal is that, DIORANG TAK BAGITAU PUN ADA TEST ESOK HARINYA!! Diorang lupa ke, buat2 lupa aku tak tau. Kalau aku tak tanya ngan kawan aku pasal homework sebab aku nak buat, mesti aku masuk kelas blur! Nasib masih sabar tak menyumpah2. ok, sebab aku mmg tak menyumpah2. Tapi seriously, hari tu aku jumpa ngan diorang...lepas kelas. Aku tanya diorang buat apa kat kelas tadi diorang tak mention satu pun kat aku pasal test. Aku tak pergi kelas pun sebab aku ada event. So sebagai kawan yang aku anggap rapat, aku berharap diorang ingatla jugak kat aku...So, ok, diorang dah jumpa kawan yang lagi pandai dan vogue ke dari aku sampai aku terus dilupakan?? Sampainya hati? Yes, aku sentiasa dilupakan. Kalau ada event or anything, diorang takkan bagitau aku. kalau ada apa2 nak dibualkan mesti aku blurr...ok...aku sedih...O.M-ALLAH, forever alone aku nih...

Yep, aku pergi kelas, buat test, dua paper berturut2 pagi tu, and sampai sekarang diorang masih tak tau apa silap diorang. Takda yang mintak maaf pun sebab kecikkan hati aku. And today selepas tensen ngan kerja, gejolak perasaan, sedih nye lagi, ngan stress paper2 test lagi...aku menjangkakan aku akan fail paper 2 TAX. "N.I.C.E." SANGAT KAN?????

p/s: TENSION SAMPAI CALL KAWAN MINTAK TOLONG TEMAN G MAKAN...KAT AIRPORT!

BALIK RAYA:PART 1

RABU, 15 OGOS 2012

Kat luar bilik pagi tadi dah mula dengar orang hantar kawan2 balik ke kereta...almaklumlah, nak balik raya. da pulak kawan2 yang dah balik sabtu lepas....kelas sampai hari nih...kalau diikutkan boleh balik dah pagi tadi. tapi memandangkan kelas ada tinggl satu je lagi, kelas BEL 313, maka ku gagahkan jugak diri nih ke kelas...(padahal salunye ade je alasan). tapi tk pe. ada hikmah disebaliknya. semua kerja last minute...memang, dh tbiat susah nak buang...mana tidak nya tadi bila keluar kelas awal kaki cepat je nak balik bilik hangkut semua barang nak kasi setel hari nih supaya esok tak payah lagi sibuk...ESOK NAK BALIK je.

Bila dengar hirukpikuk budak2 gelak2 kat bawah blok, pilu lak....cam terfikir...aku nih, bila nak balik? ahad raya dah...(insya-ALLAH)l. tanya roomate, dia cakap dia taktau lagi balik bila. walaupun baru hujung minggu lepas balik raya. tapi kenyataanya aku nak balik raya nih terus....sebab minggu lepas tak sempat nak buat apa2 pun. kalau balik khamis mesti tak banyak masa nak kemas2. banyak barang nak kena kemas.

cemburu pulak tengok orang lain dah balik. asrama dah makin sunyi...dan malam ni, tido sendiri2...sedihnya... =(

p/s: disebabkan kawan2 suma dah balik, nak berbuka ngan siapa ye hari nih? sorang saja ke?

RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI

hye, lama dah tak membersihkan sawang2 dalam laman sesawang nih. ehehehek. anyways, banyak nak update sebenarnya, tapi rasanya macam setiap kali bukak laptop mesti rasa ilang idea nak tulis macam mana. sori yeh. insya-ALLAH di kesempatan lain Izzie update. anyways, harap2 belum terlambat lagi nak ucapkan SALAM RAMADHAN ALMUBARAK kepada semua bloggers dan followers. hikhikhik...

okies, nak ke Desa Ilmu, g bazaar...khekhekhekhe.....

ALL ABOUT WEDDINGS

apa khabar korang? miss me? not? ha...sukahati la....ehehehe...(amboi bunyi merajuk pulak)

lama jugak tinggla blog nih tanpa updates yang mmg updates. apa la sangat yang terjadi dalam hidup nih selama tu ye? wait....banyak ahahahaha... hurm. apapun, tajuk 'kuliah' dinihari kita pada hari nih...cheywah! macam la bebeno sangat bunyi nye...nak tau tajuknya? ha, baca tajuk kat atas. malas jari nih nak type balik.huahahahah!

aku memang suka majlis perkahwinan. aku tak tahu dari bila aku suka. padahal dulu aku jugak yang jarang nak ikut mak ayah pergi pengilan (a.k.a pergi kenduri). iyela, zaman kecik belum baligh memang la tak suka sangat sebab dok tercongok tengok pengantin duduk depan tu pakai baju cantik2 pastu makan, pastu balik. apa lah sangat yang aku paham kan? huahahhaa...macam la korang tak buat benda yang sama...kuang...kuang...kuang...

tapi semenjak dua menjak tiga empat lima menjak nih (macam mana leh lulus BM ngan bahasa camni????) aku memang suka pergi tengok orang kawin. mungkin sebab umur pun makin lama kot... (tak sebut perkataan tu!!) 

owh btw, aku suka jugak g majlis2 macam nih sebab ambience best...ramai orang n then, orang bole pakai lawa, then tengok orang lain pakai lawa2 jugak...then makan free....saya ulangi...MAKAN FREE...ehehhe.

hurm...aku rasa ak dah mula minat ngan perkara-perkara berkaitan perkahwinan ni. tapi bukan aku nak kawin...(muda lagi nih....belum cukup syarat!) tapi aku rasa, perkahwinan-especially perkahwinan Melayu- memang banyak untuk kalau ada yang nak ceburinya. boleh jadi creatif dalam masayang sama, tinggalkan jejak dalam membahagiakan orang (or atleast tolong dalam menjayakan hari bahagia diorang lah) lepas tu,bole buat duit. ekekeke...maybe aku akan bukak business kot???? ntah la labu...insya-ALLAH. jom pakat doa ramai2.

aku memang suka wedding yang ada elemen semula jadi...aku suka hijau dan putih  dengan tambahan warna2 fresh!

cantik kan? kek ni macam cover novel 'You're The One That I Don't Want' oleh Alexandria Potter pulak.

p/s: anak saudara akan membina masjid hujung minggu nih....excited pulak nak tengok weddingnya...

my last day as a 21 year old... keseorangan... ='(

wishing that my mom and dad could be here tomorrow. 

I'M AFRAID OF FAILING

failure is addictive. usually once you failed, it can happen again...and again...and again. until one day u realise, it had happened for quite a lot now. i've been a failure. not once, not twice...but more than that. to tell you the truth, I AM SICK OF THAT! i'm not dumb. i'm not incapable, not even a slightly stupid person. perhaps the efforts are not enough. lazy? how could i be one when i'm always here and there? tired? yes! anyway, i just don't want to be a failure. nope...not again. so, to my dear self, help me...

 now i have to think of ways not to fail in the final and seriously score at it. at least i got some pointers right?

jom sama2 doakan.

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BAJU KURUNG MAMA

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys.

How's your day? Hehehe...semangat pulak pergi ke kelas hari nih. Seronok. ehehe...nak cerita sikit pasal baju kurung mama. cam sedeyh je bunyi tajuk nih. ekceli, tak de la sedih pown. okok. aku sorang je anak pompuan mama. so kira manja la ngan mama kan. cam besa la. mama selalu bagi aku baju dia yang lama2. kira tak leh nak muat lagi ngan 'slim' fit dia tu. baju mama banyak yang cam baru sebab dia banyak baju n banyak mmg baru2. ngehehe. bila dia takleh nak muat lagi, aku yang ambik. kadang2 kalau mama tak bagi pown, aku mintak je kat dia. bukan sebab aku takda baju (especially baju kurung), tapi sebab aku suka ambik baju mama and pakai. best la jugak. walopun secara sebenarnya la kan, saiz aku ngan saiz mama memang berbeza. aku kecik dan kontot. nait berat pown masih kecik jugak. mama berisi ckit and tinggi lagi dari aku. so technically baju mama semuanya panjang2...dan besar. ahahaha. so bila aku pakai len je ropenye.

mungkin kazen mazen aku yang len salu jugak dapat benda2 camni. salunya anak2 perempuan la. anak lelaki erm....jarang kot. korang pown mesti pernah kan? aku cam before nih, terlalu kecik sanghat jadi aku cam jeles je bila kazen mazen semuanya dapat pakai baju mak diorang. hukhukhuk. kalau aku pakai gak kena pakai tali pinggang kat kain and kena lipat 5-6 kali. hadoheh!! seronok kan dapat pakai baju mama??

before masuk U, masa aku sekolah, aku sempat mintak dua tiga pasang baju mama. saja je nak mintak. simpan lam almari walopun tak pakai pown. tapi aku suka mintak dan simpan (apakejadahnya??). so sekarang, masa kat U, aku ada beberapa baju mama yang ada lam almari. aku bawak beberapa baju mama ke kampus untuk pakai. suka jugak seyh pakai. memangla tak fit to body ape semua, tapi seriously, everytime pakai baju kurung mama aku rasa seronok and rasa cam mama lagi dekat ngan aku. lebih dekat daripada biasa (amboi rembat tagline hot.fm pulak). bukan baju kurung mama je, kadang2 baju sejuk dan baju tshirt ayah pun aku guna. ngehehe. panggillah aku anak manja ke apa. tapi itu cara aku menghargai mak ayah aku kayh.

selalunya bila aku pakai, walaupun baju tuh cam besar daripada aku nih, aku tak malu and aku makin bersemangat. contohnya hari nih. aku pakai tudung yang aku pinjam daripada mama, baju kurung greyish-white berbunga indigo yang mama bagi sebelum semester nih and aku pakai stoking yang rasanya bapak aku punya kot sebab aku salah ambik stoking. ehehe. seronok dan makin bersemangat bila belajar. AKU SERIUS NIH!

jadi kepada korang suma kat dunia nyata sana, kalau mak korang bagi baju hand-me-down kat korang, baju diorang zaman dulu2, korang jangan lah mengeluh kata diorang nih tak best sebab tak bagi baju baru. aku rasa semua mak bapak teringin nak tengok anak2 dia sekali sekala pakai baju diorang. walupon ko sanggup pakai sepasang je. sebab sebenarnya feeling pakai baju diorang nih teramat-lah best.

korang mesti perasan kan, kalau di sarawak nih, kat semenanjung tak tau la kan, kalau berlakunya kematian terutamanya dalam ahli keluarga, mesti baju2 yang meninggal tu akan dibahagi2kan kepada ahli keluarga. contohnya masa pak nek aku meniggal (ayah kepada ayah aku), anak lelaki semua diberi kain pelikat pak nek aku tuh. ada yang dapat baju melayu dia (mana2 yang muat la) dan ada jugak yang volunteer untuk ambik buku2 lama dia termasuklah al-quran yang memang tahap koleksi muzium punya. masa nih la barang2 khazanah harta karun mak bapak korang jadi teramat berharga. kalau korang tak rasa terdetik sayang kat barang2 tu memang aku tak tau nak cakap apa la.

jadi pesanan aku kat korang, yang masih ada mak bapak, yang masih ada keluarga. kalau mak bapak bagi kita barang diorang bukan bermaksud diorang sengkek sangat sampai tak nak bagi baju baru. diorang bagi harta yang berharga buat korang supaya korang takkan lupakan diorang masa diorang dah tak da nanti. simpan barang2 istimewa diorang. bila rindu leh la kita pegang.

wassalamualaikum =)

p/s: nak call mama dan bapak malam nih. diorang mesti rindu aku seyh. ehhe.

31.12.2011 PART 1

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys. ehe...

31.12.2011, 3.00pm - Outing with my beloved cousin and new sister, Are-a & Eyna at K-Box embassy The Spring. Owh My ALLAH, thanks a lot guys. That really helps me released all the tense. Ahahaha. seriously gonna do it again!

Bought new long sleeves shirts and a set of bathing towels. Another favorite activity - SHOPPING!!!

PEREMPUAN PUNYA PERASAAN

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye ya'all...

dan hye awak. xtau la kalau bace pown kan...so whatever.

Hari nih nak bagitau sal perasaan perempuan sikit la.

Hati seorang perempuan itu sungguh halus. Lembut walaupun perangainya kasar. Ada malu walaupun nampak berani dan yakin. Suara hatinya sukar didengari walaupun suara luarannya kedengaran lantang. Orang dulu-dulu selalu nasihatkan kat kita, jaga hati seorang wanita, sebab hati wanita nih cepat rapuh, kena jaga, sebab mudah terluka. Ada benarnya orang pesan macam tu.

Apabila seorang perempuan mulai suka pada seseorang, dia hanya akan berdiam diri. Menunggu orang yang disukainya itu untuk meluahkan apa yang dia rasakan terlebih dahulu. Kenapa selalunya perempuan akan buat macam tu? Sebab diorang nih, makhluk yang pemalu. Malu sebab ehem...tak manis kalau perempuan yang mula dulu takut nanti dipanggil perigi mencari timba. Malu sebab takut nanti, lelaki itu tidak mempunyai perasaan yang sama sepertinya. Mungkin nanti dia di'tolak'. Malu sebab nanti lelaki tu bagitau kat orang lain jaja cerita yang perempuan tu suka kat dia. Macam hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorong2 pulak. Tapi, kadang-kadang perempuan masih tetap akan bagitau orang yang dia sukai tentang perasaannya. Malu pun, kena bagitau. Sebab takut tak sempat bagitau atau takut nanti diambil orang. Ataupun sekadar hanya memberitahu insan yang dia sayangi supaya dia tahu perasaannya.

Wahai lelaki, andai ada perempuan yang meluahkan perasaannya kepadamu, ucapkanlah TERIMA KASIH kepadanya. Cukup sekadar terima kasih. Hargailah keberaniannya yang menolak segala keraguannya untuk memberitahu kamu bahawa dia sukakanmu. Hargailah perasaannya. Hargailah usahanya. Cukup dengan Terima Kasih. Ketakutannya akan reda. Harus kamu tahu, ada perempuan yang hanya ingin kamu tahu, dan ingin kamu katakan kepadanya andai kamu juga mempunyai perasaan yang sama dengannya. Bukan untuk berpacaran, bukan untuk memadu kasih tanpa ikatan halal dan sah, bukan juga untuk meminta lebih daripada itu. (CHEY...BERMADAH SENDIRIAN AKU NIH KAN??)

If A Girl Says The Three Magic Word

Do not make a fool out of her,

She had tried her best to gather all the guts that she has to tell you her feelings. Kena kat perempuan yang kurang self-esteem, nanti kalau dia jumpa orang baru dia tak brani nak bagitau lagi karang.

Do not change the topic without acknowledging her feelings,

After all that she had tried, you just change the topic without saying a simple Thank You will be a humiliation for her.

Do not say you did not hear anything or pretend you don't understand her,

A girl's heart if easily hurt, she gathered her courage to tell you this important thing, just say Thank You. Show her you heard her and you are thankful she likes you even when you do not share her feelings. Takkan benda senang camtu tak pandai nak pikey kot?

Do not treat her differently,

Typical guys always did this. STUPID!! You are friends, treat her like friends. If you've never known her before, at least say 'hi' to her. That's the least that you can do after u reject her.

Do not ignore her.

Another stupid thing guys did. DO NOT ignore her. This will further humiliate her. Down goes with her confidence and you'll definitely hurt her. UNLESS she ignores you then you need to find a way to say sorry.

There's nothing wrong with saying that you do not share the same feelings, but at least let her know that she has been heard and do not act so cocky and ignorant towards other people's feelings. Most girls will understand. Be friends with them. That'll lessen their hurt.

Just say 2 simple word, THANK YOU.

WASSALAMUALAIKUM.

p/s: ok...nampak serabut je post nih. tak pe...nanti2 pikey balik. Siang karang nak drive lagi hadoi! tak tido lagi nih.

hari hujan...sedih gak wooo....hati ni la yang sedih...

AKU KENA SABAR

assalamualaikum...hye guys...

penat...rasanya perkataan tu la yang paling banyak dikeluarkan lubang mulut nih sepanjang dua minggu ni. penat sangat2 bila mesyuarat tak tentu masa...diorang nih ingat aku apa ha? okok...tak baik mengeluh...sakit pinggang ngan sakit tulang belakang dah makin teruk dah...ntah napa...adoi. aku sebeanrnya pening, dan tertekan asngat2. banyak kerja nak kena buat. tapi hati harus bersabar. orang lain tengok senang jadi aku kot. tu yang diorang tak kesah sangat.

mesyuarat bertindih2...rasa lebih kurang cam wakil rakyat ke...ahli perniagaan ke, ade gak. ngehehe...experience awal kot. amin2....bukan wakil rakyat tu...tapi ahli perniagaan. tolong amin2kan jugak ye.

plan cam nak keluar jenjalan je esok. nak g pantai tapi nampkanya tak dapat sebab jauh sangat dari campus. so maybe g karoks je le yang mampu kot. tgk la camna.

aku sebenarnya nak luarkan something la...ada beberapa sebenarnya. salah satunya...aku teramat geram sebab kena tukar topik untuk presentation BEL312 Isnin lepas. aku mulanya pilih TH Plantation, pastu bila tengok tak da orang amik Parkson Holdings, terpikat lak. so aku ambik keputusan tukar ke parkson holdings. sebenarnya mula tu aku plan nak amik Jabatan Muzium Sarawak je. tapi tak dapat sebab requirements nak company...and kena tersenarai dalam KLSE. hadoh2! tukar...

then, bila nak buat presentation Isnin tu, kena pulak sama topik ngan kawan sorang lagi. Jadi bila dah consult ngan Miss, aku yang kena tukar...aku redha sebab memang separuh daripada kesilapan aku sendiri jugak. then aku tak tau nak buat apa dah...last2 malam tadi aku terpikey nak buat sal Naim Holdings aje...so aku dah buat keputusan...presentation cuba teka...cuba teka...hari Rabu. haiseyh!!! then kejap tadi kawan aku bagitau pulak dia buat Naim Holdings...haiseyh...tak suka2....aku tak nak tukar lagi dah...penat weyh fikir panjang! nak tau apa dia cakap??? "u tukarla...u tak susah kalau tukar.senang je you." POOORAHH!!! senang ko cakap? cube ko masuk kasut aku saiz berapa nih! cuba test try camna rasanya. haiseyh.

bahaya....rumpong lappy aku!

so...bila aku pikey2 balik...takpa...aku buat biar lain daripada yang lain. slides insya-ALLAH dah mantap...tukar topik benda sama...dan aku akhirnya kekal ngan TH Plantation yang kebanyakan orang tak tau tentang kewujudan depa nih. ekceli, aku bangga sebab Board of Directors depa mmg orang Melayu Muslim...so...dalam banyak2 projek yang lain jarang kot nak tengok BOD yang Melayu Muslim. Alhamdulillah. Buat projek ni sedikit sebanyak ngajar aku berlajar bersedia untuk menempuh apa sahaja yang mungkin menyulitkan hidup. Kena banyak bersabar dan berusaha lebih. Mana tau, bila kena timpa masalah cam nih, aku boleh buat yang lebih baik daripada kalau aku buat yang lain, kan?

So, aku takkan mengeluh. sebab mengeluh itu sifat orang yang malas untuk memperbaiki diri...kot la. taktau sangat. tapi aku sedang dalam proses belajar untuk tidak mengeluh. Insya-ALLAH, doakan aku ye.

yang kedua pulak, aku nak share adalah kekecewaan aku...sedikit la...tak banyak pun kecewa nya. engehehe...

'abg korea' tak datang kelas pulak isnin lepas...huhu...ok...aku mula rasa tak selesa pulak nak jumpa dia especially lepas aku bagitau dia perasaan aku...cheywah!! drama nye bunyi! tapi yes, aku cam malu sebab aku dapat rasakan dia mungkin tak share perasaan yang sama cam aku.

aku redha...tak apa...jodoh jauh lagi kot. kena sabar dan berusaha cari yang baik2.

apapun, insya-ALLAH esok jumpa dia lagi. sebab esok kelas BEL dan ada mesyuarat. insya-ALLAH aku g jugak.ahahaha.kalau tak tak tau la...

ok...tu je...nanti aku update lagi.ehehe...

wassalamualaikum

p/s: sapa la pasang lagu jiwang kapak kat library nih??? tapi best gak...ada lagu latar...cun ngan perasaan skarang nih. AHAHAHAK.

KEEPING ME SMILING...THE WHOLE DAY

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...hye guys.

I bet if you've read my previous posts u'll understand why I named this post today as it is now.

Yes, i think i do have a crush or maybe more than that to this friend of mine. From previous experiences, the usual crush will only lasts for a short period of time, and usually I won't be so sure as this. I've only felt this way once. That 'once' I'm saying is almost stepping into the fifth year. Now, I've got the same feeling...like what i felt then. Is it possible this could ever happen again?

I hope this time, I wouldn't get hurt for feeling this. But I can't say for sure though. I really can't. I am not sure how he felt towards me. But this time, unlike the first time I did feel this, I am sure to be more prepared...prepared of rejection, and prepared to be more matured. Instead of wanting a relationship, I only want him to know how i felt. Nothing more, nothing less. Keeping this friendship is much more important. Plus, i don't think I would want to get involved unless we're engaged. Seeing the situation now, the later isn't something that would come anytime soon. Getting to know each other is better rather than to be involved in something that would turn our feelings sour to each other.

Whatever it is, I am sure that I am in love. Even if it isn't that LOVE yet. It's something that made my heart sings the whole day and praying that this is real.

Tonight i kept on playing these songs...I'd like to share it with you guys. Enjoy the songs!

YOU GOT ME

You're stuck on me 
and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though 
I try to hide, I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe, you got me, yeah
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours 
it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin each day in this life, without you.
Without you.

One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in 
you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way
I know we will
and in my heart I know that 
you'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do
Oh, I just can't get enough
Find my stoup I need to fill me up
It feels so good it musIt's everything that I've been dreaming of.t be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

FALLIN' FOR YOU

I don't know but
I think I maybe 
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh 
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

p/s: rindu pulak nak jumpa...insya-ALLAH esok jumpa...nak bagitau ke tak???